BEing single is not a crime but sometime if there is someone to support and care for me isnt it better. HAha....too used to being alone! I am a person who believe strongly in fate, but fate has seems to take too long bring me my girl. Not that i am being pressurised by peers around me, coz i dun think peer pressure can change me..but can influence me lah. Sianz to be alone eating but scared that i cannot handle so much. contradiction right- that's me!!!. maybe too much of worries are slowing me to move forward. Hope can find my someone to share my naggings, worries, happiness and irritations i face in my life. Is time to do what i susposed to do. Work harder...

crabs alot...haha

YeaH...i passed my driving! But that is because the tester a bit lenient. Haha. But still a passed. It is rather scary to drive a long. 6 wheels, 27 tonnes wecker on road. My point must take note during turning...Everything is over...No more driving test...and have a long break till next tues.

After NS, I realise the importance of exercising and maintaining a balanced diet. Hence now more cautious with what i intake and the amount of vegetables and fruits i consumed. Not just that, I work out on weights 3 times a week and cardio training twice a week. THat freshened my life and i dont fall sick easily like last time in sec and poly era. LAst time used to hate running and exercising and think is a waste of time...but now beside entertainment, ruan, going gym is the third hobby. Not just, building a good health but also to tone up my body and LOOKS GOOD In the mirror. It is not late to start somewhere and live without regret!

haiz. Overslept till 6am but lucky i was not late. I off my alarm unintentionally and my dad did not wake me up like usual. Going mandai hill camp alone was my first time, but i was surpised i did not lose my way. Only 4 people taking the Class 5 driving course as tomorrow is HARI RAYA, they have to squeeze the lesson plan. First day, after admin we will have parking and driving on main road. Hate the feeling of another test...like the class 3,4 liscence. Sianz. But driving this monster is tedious for me as the steering and gear changing need a lot of strength to accomplish. It was difficult in the beginning, but hope it will be better on wed. Haha. FEAR comes...monster on road. Not to mention that i almost bang onto a yellow cab which suddenly cut me and stop infront of me to pick up passengers....in front of a junction. My instructor scolded and horned. I faced this problem many times and everytime forced me to E-brake. Hope i can pass the first test and get a long week end.

GAMBATE!!!

Sad to say i am a person who didnt have the determination to control my Illness of shopping....hiaz. i need someone help. Haha. HAd been overspending and that is serious as i cant clear my immediate debts. Then after reading the news regarding the guy who jump into the MRT track to end his desperate life, i felt more guilty of my actions. I need to be more firm with my financial control...orelse i will be in deep shit NExt month will be the trial stage, i will clear my debts....hiaz. Everyone must help me...ok!

Got half day OFF for NSF from WO LIM due to good performance from LRI inspection. Most of our vehicles passed the inspection and that is the result of many days OT...so WO LIM compensate us with half day "rest". That is good. All the way back, i took 168 and fallen asleep soundly on the double-decker bus. Suddenly, i woke up and realise is my stop to alight i pressed the bell and jumped off. Super-unlucky that i left my cardholder on the bus. It contains my 11B, NSF ezlink, military driving liscence, camp pass and other important card. I was angry at myself for not doing a thorough check before alighting. Luckily, my wallet still with me...so i took any bus to bedok interchange as 168 susposed to go there. I was nervous because i knew i will have to do unlimited guardduty if i report loss of so many military document. God blessed. When i reach the SBS service counter, a uncle carrying my cardholder walking towards the counter and pass it to the upper management. The senior guy ask me a few questions to verify my indentity and pass me back the cardholder. It was a bad day in the beginning but that uncle save my life. Thanks.


Later in the evening, i meet ellow and kuku for pepperlunch dinner. Same old things, both of them were late so i walk around window shopping and feel that ISETAN SHAW quite a lot of things to shop. Ya but must restraint from shopping shopping...i had overspent this month budget. We had gossip session as kuku complain about her trainer. Haha. Hotel industry always has "attitude" or "bad" people. Pepperlunch food is good but as usual the air in the restaurant is very oily so we left for FAR east after dinner.

This afternoon, i recevied a call from training cadre informing me that next week i have to go for my class 5 wrecker driving liscence course. They always like to inofrm me about courses on very last minutes and that always disrupt my original schedules. I am sick of it. Next week, i susposed to have my standby recovery duty with wei'en. But now... i cant. Furthermore, i have to travel so far to...mandai hill camp for the course. sianz...I dislike the feeling of moving here and there around different camps...What to do? I am just a tiny 3rd Sergeant.

Tonight, jonathon organise dinner for 4As click for the first time. The usual bunch of guys- tiankwan, alan, chye soon, jonathon and me turn up and went to a restaurant at east coast. Jonathon drove us there and we had a good " beef horfun" there. It is so called the " zhao pai." Then we had some updates of current situations especially for chye soon as we are curious what he was doing recently, no school and work....haha. And alan is under high stress with bombardment of endless assignments, exams and project work. Good luck and must have more Sleep.

Ok is late and time to rest early. Tomorrow is another battle.
jim....

After so many years, i still never realise my mistake of critising people without looking back at myself. Like many others, i find it hard to see my own flaws...hence sometime or usually true friends will let me know. This cause a big issue to EQ as it driven friends and famliy apart. I shall change and start afresh. Try my best to be myself and yet controlling the criticism by mirroring at myself. "did i do that before?" Hope i wouldnt drove off all my close friends....friends criticize me so i can learn from my mistakes...friends are able to see me from different angle hence is better for them to judge.

Life is still boring with LOVE. Workshop, gyming, window- shopping and ruan....what else? Maybe meet up with friends. Quite sianz rite...preparing for the upcoming competition...try my best not to disappoint my teacher and myself. haha. is TOUGH but need to persevere to the end. NO Choice.



Exhausted worm after GYM.

Quite sad, these few days very exhausted. Thus no mood to blog. LRI coming so everyday OT till around 7pm then sat and sun still have to go back camp to continue repair and servicing job- give me a break. Is there a need to OT to finish all the job? or just for the sake of showing others we are OTing. hiaz. The haze worsened the uneven atmosphere...nose and lungs are not performing to their usual standard. Hopely the compensation of OFF can motivate me to work harder for the loss of personal time which i cherish a lot.

Any good movies to recommend....i am bored and too much free time is killing me. Think i need to go swimming, tanning at sentosa soon.

VIVO city was a HUGE MALL. A lot of shops, to complete shopping there, first must be selective and know what to buy in advance orelse you will spend time walking and walking around the mall empty handed.

Materials "want" or shopping are way that can help me relieve my stress. I know it is not a healthy way. It often forced my financial status to the edge towards the end of the month. I need to learn financial management. Haha. I am still seeking for other ways.
Shopping is fun. After years of shopping experience, i have learn to be more cautious with products and their functionality. I always try not to buy on impulse ...i usually will hunt around before spending the "wants".

Comparing the priority of needs and wants can help me minimize the problem of over-budget. Should settle immediate finanical debts like bills and transport fares first. However, I am not that discipline when comes to money matter.

The Indonesia forest fire had created a unforgettable mid-autumn festival this year. A misty one. I acutally organise outting to celebrate mid-autumn but was cancelled due to lack of participation and the hazey weather.
The haze was really bad on saturatday morning reaching 150 PSI. (Unhealthy range) the direction of the wind plays an important role in bringing the haze to Singapore. What to do? Live with it lor...Hope it will not reach the scary condition in 1997.

Many friends working in Hotel line face quite a big challenge working with divesified groups of people from all-walks of life. Sometime is easier to say than do. Accepting, accomodating and compromising is not the ultimate solution is human relationship. Hope all friends working in this line to "GABATE" and " Jia you"

Once a year, tomorrow will be mid-autumn festical. Though not much people celebrate, my family does all these years. We will buy mooncakes with or without egg yolk and pamelo for blessing. Since i tasted Raffles Plaza Snowskin mooncakes the year before, i fell in loved with it. I cannot remember what i buy last year, maybe champagne truffles snowskin mooncakes. It is expensive due to its branding, but is worth it. Everyone should try that beside the usual normal lotus paste mooncake. Carrying lanterns and playing with candles seems like games the children will play, i like playing with them...and recollect some of the past wonderful memories...parents buy those paper lanterns, then friends and neighbour start comparing....Everyone is time to leave your work aside and enjoy a day with family and friends...

Hope Singaporean can build up hospitality spirit by creating a more civilised, cultured and polite from their heart and not having those " FAKE" smiles during "SPECIAL" seasons. Like thailand and taiwan, when i was a tourist there 2 years back. The thais and taiwanese were majority polite and helpful. Most amazing part was in taiwan where the people queuing up neatly awaiting for the arriving trains. No overtaking or cutting the queue. And they actually keep 'right' when taking escalator. We can learn from them. I am learning too.

Running away from here now is the best to relief my stress. There is too much responsibilities and events to plan ahead. Actually i hated planning, however everyone thinks i am good at it. I am just too nice to reject..haha. Just do not want to cork-up the show, planning is necessary but exhausting in liasing. Thus ususally i try not to plan friends' gathering, scared that i will screw up the gathering...coz my brain cannot possibly have so much things.

Going to Gym, camp, parade, duty, work, tuitions, family dinners and friends' outings occupied my timetable. I am not complaining about having them but sometime when the timing crashed and both are important to me, then i will have to find reasons to cover up- i will need panadol. Haha. Life is back to usual-SELETAR CAMP. I start with all the servicing of those big vehicles, getting my hands in dirt, saw dust and oil. And of coz getting my head bang here and there. Sianz. I hate getting myself so dirty and wet in perspiration. Er...forget it. life with nO choice.

QUite tired of this type of lifestyle. Hope can pay to live a carefree life. Go for some retreat to those non- urban area will be a good idea to relieve stress and mind from many disturbances.
Too late...tomorrow will post 10 disgusting things that Singaporean used to do.

Sad to say i really do not know what i will be doing in the future. That is scary especially in the urban city like Singapore where the working environment needs you to focus and predetermined what you want to work.
But i have no idea. I always follow my interest and heart when i faced with choices. Like choosing TP hospitality is because i like cooking since young and many of my buddies were there. After going through the course, i actually love it. I like the human element in this industry.

On other hand, many friends questioned me for continually spending huge amount of money on zhongruan lessons. I have no answer to that question. I just know i have to do it. Haha, that sound very Spiritual. No la, I just want to enjoy the experience of learning, communicating and experimenting with my teacher, whether or not i will enter or succeed in the music industry is not my concerns. Sometime in life, time and money cannot buy, rather slack behind the chair, i will spend my time and money on learning something i like...and that cannot be taken away from me. Peiwen good luck to your dancing and singing, hope you make the time fruitful and enjoy yourslef...

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